Saturday, February 9, 2013

Grace Worthing Fermazin Birthday

My mom Grace Worthing Fermazin would be 96 years old today, February 9, 2013

Born in Truro, Iowa on February 9, 1917.  Love you Mom. Miss you terribly.



Thursday, February 7, 2013

robert and grace fermazin marriage


Married on February 7, 1942 in Aurora, Illinois at St. Paul's Lutheran Church

Love you mom and dad. Miss you terribly.


Monday, December 17, 2012

A Sprinkle of This and a Dash of That


A Sprinkle of This and a Dash of That…

            Meals make memories. An important part of family life is food, so why not family history? Some of my fondest memories from childhood are the times I spent in my Grandma’s kitchen. Food and food traditions is an important ingredient in every family’s history.  To me food is a connection. It is what connects us to people and places and where we came from.  Memories are built around food.
I learned to cook from my Grandma. She cooked breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day, which I took for granted. Memories of making strawberry pie, jello and kekse are some of my happiest. Her  yellow kitchen was small and compact with a large window above the stove which filled the space with natural light and vibrant colors which gave it a feeling of a happy place.
When we cooked with Grandma we donned hairnets and aprons with big pockets to match hers. There was a special drawer in the kitchen for them and my Grandma had made two pint sized aprons for my sister, Mary and I to wear.
Grandma made German beef roulade, kraut soup and beer brats to name a few ethnic recipes she got from her mother. Flour to knead, a pinch of salt, a sprinkle of baking soda, and sugar all characterize my Grandma’s recipes. Grandma’s generation (1887-1969) cooked largely from experience, not precise recipes. They needed no reminders to chop the onion, use a certain size pan, or pre-heat the oven. When sharing recipes with friends, they jotted down only the essentials.
            I remember hearing a story about Mom sharing a 4th of July Dessert Salad recipe with a friend. Mom gave Helen the list of Grandma’s standard ingredients for her “24 Hour Dessert Salad”.
1 cup fruit cocktail
1 c pineapple
1 c coconut
1 c oranges
1 c marshmallows
1 c sour cream
2 c rice (about)
Mom heard no more about it. Weeks later Mom asked Helen how her salad turned out. Helen hesitated and then blurted out, “Yeah, I used it but you didn’t tell me I had to cook the rice and chill the salad over night.” As I said, they shared recipes by just jotting down the essentials. I too have fond memories centered around the kitchen and my family. Our family still laughs in jest over my first cake.  I’ll never forget my first cake. The recipe said to mix by hand…and that’s exactly what I did. Mom walked into the kitchen to see me with both hands right in the cake mix batter, mixing away. Of course I  cried  at my "big" blunder.  Now I can look back and laugh laugh at my memory of making my first cake.
            I love Grandma’s cookbook.  It has a special place in my cupboard.  I use it a lot.  In it are some of her best recipes, mock chicken legs, fried potatoes, homemade bread, and Christmas Kekse (cookies), German shortbreads and hazelnut macaroons. Her personal notes align the margins. “Too much salt”, use only ½ teaspoon” underlined or “add more sugar”. Grandma’s strawberry shortcake and pie were renowned. My sister and I watched Grandma make strawberry shortcake. She poured flour into a mixing bowl, added sugar, and a pinch of salt, some baking soda, warm milk and melted butter. Then, she stirred it with a fork.  When finished, she gave it the finger test, running her index finger around the edge of the bowl and licking the mixture. If it was not quite ready she added more flour or more melted butter or a pinch of salt. She never used a recipe, just mixed up the ingredients.  She then picked up the shortcake dough and rolled it around in the palms of her hands making small balls.  When ready, to her liking she placed them on the baking sheet. She gently punched the center of each one with her thumb making a slight indentation ready to pop in the oven after dinner. I can make shortcake without a recipe and mine turn out melt in your mouth delicious, just like Grandma’s.
Fried chicken was a specialty in Grandma’s kitchen.  She poured flour into a paper bag with salt and pepper and dried herbs from her garden. She dropped in the legs, thighs, breasts, and wings. Closing the bag, she shook it vigorously. It was fun for Mary and me to take turns shaking the bag. Picking the chicken, out of the bag with her hands she placed the evenly coated chicken in the frying pans filled with Crisco.  Grandma sprinkled paprika on the chicken and then browned the chicken on both sides. After browning she placed them in the roaster and put the chicken in the oven to finish cooking. We’ve never been able to duplicate the exact flavor of Grandma’s coating for her chicken. It’s not written down anywhere in her cookbook or recipe cards. I guess she kept it a secret just like Colonel Sanders.    
Custard was another specialty. Grandma scalded milk on top the stove, while beating up eggs, sugar, a pinch of salt, and some vanilla in another bowl.  She added the scalded milk to the mixture and stirred it with a spoon to melt the sugar. She gave it the finger test and if it needed more eggs she added them or added more sugar if not sweet enough.  Then, she poured the custard into a large baking pan. She inserted the baking pan into another larger baking pan filled with hot water and popped them into the oven for an hour. When finished she sprinkled grated nutmeg over the top.
I have a Cranberry Fluff Mold recipe of Grandma’s where she wrote along the margin. In the recipe she wrote and underlined, “add 1 pt of cream whipped and folded in.” Underlined “don’t beat anymore fold in”. When the mold was finished and ready to turn out on the platter she wrote “to remove set on platter over mold and turn upside down and decorate with leaves, lemon or Galex 35 ¢ at the florist shop and put canned peaches and pears over leaves and put some red coloring on the peaches and pears”. Along the margin of this recipe she wrote, “Dab just a spot of coloring on peaches and pears with your fingertip o”. I assumed the “o” meant the size of the spot. I am not sure what Galex is.
When Grandma finished baking or serving her dishes, her large brown eyes sparkled as she looked at her creations. She always said, “Das ist gut. Ja. Das ist gut“. These are just a few of Grandma’s recipes I was fortunate to preserve  for my family history. No fast food for Grandma. Everything was made from scratch.  

An Almost Tragedy in the Making


                                                        Bang, Bang, Daddy

“Bang, bang, Daddy” my two year old son, Kevin yelled as he pointed the 22 guage  revolver at Terry’s head.
“Bang, bang, Daddy”

Standing in the doorway to the bedroom I saw Kevin, dressed in his cowboy suit and western hat with his holster at his side standing next to dad who was snoring.

“No! No! Give me that gun. Honey, give mommy the gun.”
The loaded 22 must have been under the pillow. I wasn’t sure where Terry kept the gun but Kevin had found it. The gun did not have the safety catch on.
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Putting my hand in the leather holster, I gripped the gun like a weight lifter grabs bar bells as he raises them over his head. The revolver felt like 500 pounds rather than the one pound it weighed. Shaking and sweating, stairing straight ahead at the target range. I squinted and then shut my eyes and pulled the trigger. The bullet took off into space careening towards the empty parking lot. It had a mind of its own.
“What are you aiming at? Can’t you see the target!”

1963.  Another failure on the target range. Terry took a few rounds and then we got into the car and drove  in silence the 70 miles home from Winchester to Buena Park.
Terry had been trying to teach me to shoot since 1960. I failed miserably.
This is it. I hate guns. The gun has gotta’ go. He has to go.

Twice a month we drove to the target range in Winchester, California for target practice. I hated guns. I was afraid of them. We never had guns in our house growing up.

“Kevin, give me the gun. Give mommy the gun.” Kevin dropped the gun on the floor running back into the living room picking up his cap gun.

Later that day, Terry and I argued about the gun. That wasn’t the only issue we had. This was the incident that broke up our marriage.  After consultation with my parents and my pastor, I made up my mind.  We were separating for awhile.  I just could not live like this.  After the separation, Terry moved back to Ohio, and I got a divorce. 
In retrospect, I think we were too immature and too young to make this marriage work. 

The Night I Saw Johnny Cash
1959

            I harrowed over what I might wear, what I would say, and what my impressions would be. To say I was nervous—my hands were sweaty. I was a bundle of nerves. I laid everything out for the evening.  I got dressed. Twirling in front of the mirror, I pulled my new pink cashmere sweater down, straightened  my Pendleton pink and gray pleated skirt and adjusted my shoelaces.
I held my head up high. My date arrived. This was my third date with Terry. My parents liked him. I was nervous and tended to be shy and when my near—debilitating shyness subsided I tended to be awkward. We were going to see Johnny Cash at the Harmony Park Ballroom. I was told it was like going to American Bandstand.
            Pat, Clay, Terry and I arrived at Harmony Park about 8 pm. Goose  bumps were up and down my arms and my stomach churned. I was talking fast running my words together asking questions about Harmony Park. I couldn’t wait.
            We walked in holding hands. I tugged on Terry’s arm while anxiously asking, “Do you really think Johnny Cash will be here tonight?” Just then we entered the ballroom that smelled of whiskey and stale beer. The smoke was so thick you could hardly make the people out.  People were standing around with a cigarette in one hand and a bottle of beer in the other. Guitar music and country western singing was playing loudly in the background.
            Did anyone recognize me as I scanned the room from the doorway? Hands shaking, I pulled my sweater down, twisted my skirt around at the waist and slumped down behind Terry, while brushing my hair back as we entered the room. Next I heard loud clapping as Johnny Cash came out on the stage strumming his guitar and singing I Walk the Line. Everyone was stomping their boots and yelling loudly.
I don’t know how we made it past the entrance without being carded.  Pat was seventeen and I was sixteen and a half, a senior in high school. Terry and Clay were nineteen and twenty. Quivering and trembling, I tugged at Terry my date, pulling on his arm. “Please, we have to leave. We’re going to get arrested. What am I going to tell my parents when they find out I’ve been in a bar?” Sweating profusely, I started to cry, “Please, you gotta’ take me home.”

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Kodiak Flapjacks

MY HERITAGE RECIPE

KODIAK FLAPJACKS

(Modified recipe)
1 1/2 cups Kodiak pancake and waffe mix
1/2 cup Bisquick
1 1/2 cups water
1/2 cup milk
Add 2 teasp melted butter to mixture
Add 2 tesap Tubinado sugar
Add 1 teasp cinnamon
Mix all ingredients together
Cook on hot grill
Sprinkle walnuts and blueberries on top of pancakes while cooking first side
When pancake mix bubbles Flip over and finish cooking
Serve with real maple syrup and real butter

* You can make pancakes any size you want, Saucer size or smaller
I did not have any baking powder so I added Bisquick to the mix to make them thicker and to make them rise. Then I decided they needed some sugar and melted butter like when you make shortcake. I think the cinnamon made them browner just like the ones you get at the Ole Pancake House in Yorba Linda. If your mixture is too runny just add more pancake mix before cooking. This morning's pancakes turned out extra specially delicious. Maybe because I experimented with the recipe on a rainy day.

Serve with ham and eggs or sausage and eggs. Bill had chocolate milk with his. Kodiak pancake mix is one of the best I have used other than whole grain mix found at Mother's Market. These are better than my Swedish pancakes. I need a good recipe for Swedish pancakes. Haven't quite figured that one out yet to our liking.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

REFLECTING ON MOM

Today I was thinking of Mom.  Mom, Grace Worthing,  had a great life but also had some sadness. She was orphaned at age 16 when most young girls are thinking of their first proms, dates, and boys.  Her mother, Nancy Ames Hansen Worthing,  passed when she was only 12 years old and her dad, Charles Worthing passed when she was 16. Mom was lucky to have two step brothers in Ohio.  After her dad passed she was sent to live with her half brother, Walter Worthing and his two daughters, Lucille and Hazel on a farm in Birds Run, Ohio.

Mom didn't stay there long.  She ended up living in New Concord, Ohio at her cousin Eppie Mossholder's.

I know as a child at about age 8 and 10 we went to Ohio to visit mom's family.  The first time was on a train. I remember sleeping curled up in a seat with my sister facing mom and dad who where sitting in the seat across from us. The other time we went to Ohio was when dad drove. I remember, dad didn't like heights and we went across the  dam and winding road on the way to Ohio. I don't remember the name of the dam but think it was part of the Tennessee Valley Authority. Anyway it was high and winding road.

We had fun on both trips to Guernsey County Ohio and New Concord. We stayed at the Frank Buker farm which was the original Richard Worthing farm, my mom's grandfather.  We used an outhouse for a bathroom. I also remember feeding the free range chickens, the hogs, and milking the cows.  We ate homemade fried chicken and drank raw milk.  We played at the Frank Worthing farm down the road with our new found cousins.  Then we drove up and around the bend to Hazel Worthing's farm where we ate home made ice cream. Behind the old Buker farm was a Worthing Cemetery in Ohio where Seth and Harriet Worthing and their children are buried. Seth was one of my Greatgrandfather, Richard Worthing's sons.

In New Concord I remember Eppie and Guy Mossholder. They had a big two story house on main street.  We stayed upstairs. I remember the big huge kitchen. Mom learned to cook there from Eppie as a 16 year old.  I remember the big front porch where we sat at night and visited.  When in New Concord we visited mom's childhood cousin Dr. Castor father of Annie Castor Glenn (wife of John Glenn). Mom used to spend summers with Annie Castor in Akron Ohio.

I think we only made one trip to Truro, Iowa where mom was born and raised. Truro is a small town of 300 nestled in Madison County near all the famous bridges.  A lovely small town.  Only a library and tavern on main street and a school.  We visited the Worthing  Cemetery and put flowers on my grandma and grandpa's graves and visited the Baptist Church near the cemetery where the Worthing's attended. The cemetery is still there today. I have visited it in 2001 and 2004 and 2008. We ate chicken dinners at  a cousin's of mom's in Truro. We went to Merle Cregor's house to visit with the family who were mom's cousins. Mom was trying to get a post birth certificate. She needed to get affadavits from witnesses of her birth so she would have evidence in the futher for her social security.  It turned out mom didn't need these as Social Security could prove her birth by the census records and  school records.

Besides our trips to Ohio and Iowa, mom's half brother, Uncle Kenny Worthing used to come to Aurora every winter to stay with us. I think he was a great comfort to mom.

I only wish we could have made more trips to Iowa and Ohio for mom's sake. She would have loved that and the ability to visit her family.

I wish I could remember more.  Mom had a half sister Blanche Hansen Stevens who died in 1945 in Aurora, Illinois from Cancer of the  uterus.  Sad for mom.  Mom's best friend in Aurora was Marie Flynn Vaghey. They were the "giggle" girls and inseparable. Good for mom. Mom had us and her in-laws who she loved very much and they loved her like a daughter. We were so lucky to grow up in a loving, caring, family oriented home with a sweet, dear mom.